Somethin to think..

24 years of memorizing theories and observing behaviors around me and I finally realized the existence of true happiness is not in that book I read nor in that movie I watched, but in me, all inside me.
I can make my life peaceful, happy, content, disastrous all in the press of a button, in my head. The button of simple logic and yes, the answer is in me.
First of all there is this phrase that can work the magic. Keep it simple.. and real, yes the “Real” part is something I added because this is very very important ; trust me , the moment you fake is the moment of uncertain confusions. This is true… but it is hard to memorize a lie exactly the same way.
And in any circumstances listen to your heart and only your heart, because we are all humans and we always have contempt in another human’s opinion and this lies deep down inside, sleeping like a monster and then we think over, is this a better answer or is there a more attractive one? Or should I still listen to my heart ? Questions, questions all over.. The unsatisfying nature of humans.. it’s just typical isn’t it?
In moments of crisis think of a worse one. So you had a break up, a bad fight, lost your pet.. have you thought about how it is to stare at a tube that is feeding you plunged into your throat and you can no more chew or taste your food and all you smell is rot ? thought about having a date and you can never see how pretty you look in that new dress? Thought about having to see someone over you , squeezing inch by inch of you and laughing at you when you lay naked and get paid for a days meal? That is misery, real misery. Still people survive, people come out of it, dream of a better life.. so how hurt are you ?

And life is not always about being right, being beautiful, being sensible and being thoughtful. We have so many emotions in us. We dream, we miss, we are naughty, we break rules, sometimes forgive, cry over little things, act stupid and we love..and a lot more.. together we hold up this tiny little soul we have, and it should never be a disaster that should open our eyes to all what we left behind. That’s when you can say you have LIVED your life.

Who ?

I love the look in your eyes, icy cold but roasted brown
I love the way you lay ,on some frozen bricks
I love the way you play, with just me in my head
I love the fire you burn inside, when you pass

Give me, something a little bit more
I cant see anything right but I don’t really care any more
Hit me, right in my swinging head
I cant feel my feet, but they re swinging with the song
Come hit me right and take me for a ride
Show me some stars and ride along my side

They say its colder outside now, so we get you straight to mouth
They say u can balance it all out, but I cant balance on my own
Feeling funny inside, a lot more naughty outside
But I can connect with myself now

Give me, something evil to think over
I cant think anything right but I don’t really care any more

Give me, something crazy to shout aloud

I cant listen anything right but just the noises in my head

Come mix with me slow and take me to your world
Teach me to burn like fire over bricks of ice
Give me, something a little bit more hard and nice

When I watch the ice rolling to my nose
I cant see anything right but I don’t really care any more