It was just a dream; not beyond that
But it crushed many dreams
It was not my future; not my present
But it crushed my future; my present

Funny how people come and go
Funny how stupid this heart works
It’s illogical and irritated
Never satisfied always wandering

Confusion never took a turn this way
Where I found the road stopped
There was no reverse gear for this car
There was only a window pane
Through which I saw nothing; but A vague tomorrow

So I am taking what he gave me
I am pulling through into nowhere
This is my life, this is my choice
No regrets, all promises UN kept

I am taking what I gave myself
I could have lived a better life
I could have lived the perfect lie

But I gave truth no hide out; I would never!
So I am leaving it all, forgive me Father.

Mornings never looked this calm, I have a lot of time
To think of us and may be just about you
The nights felt never this lonely
I feel tired but I cannot sleep, I have a lot of time
To cry for us and may be just for you.

All these years of masquerading
Didn’t you ever feel I was never faking
All these years of being for each other
And I always felt I was the only one trying
In the conversations you were the only one lying

So I know my mornings and my nights have changed
Every day smile faded and my thoughts engaged
To feel for us again or just feel for you
And I know not how do I do when I am so wounded